I live in a remote community in Alaska, USA. I am a father of 7 lovely children, I am always looking for the goodness in life, good friends are part of that.
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what a day!!!
today, i am aching nearly every part of my body! My face is red, my eyes burn...
Its not the flu, what happened is, i skipped work yesterday to go out hunting.
here in Western Alaska we have abundant wildlife, and yesterday i went out to get caribou...
they roam the vast tundra in great numbers. In the past i have seen herds that were estimated by the fish and game boys at being 15,000. it looked like a ribbon of dark across the landscape of white snow....
this time of year of course it is still quite cold, yesterday morning when we started out the temp was -6 f below zero. the caribou dont roam in town, so we packed our gear and gassed up our snow mobiles and headed out of town, we went 50 miles from the nearest road, and yes no fences!... as we rode on Mile after rugged mile it was ever present in my mind how long and hard would the walk back to town would be if the equipment that easily carried us out, were to break down... and it was bitter cold, icey and rough country....
the sun was bright, glaring on the ice and snow, hence my red face today... i remember a conversation I over heard one time while waiting at the hospital last spring... it was a small group of ladies , Yup'ik Eskimo ladies, who were talking about their husbands... you see, in the spring is when a lot of people go out into the still frozen land, and fish on the ice and hunt... often you can tell who has been out without them saying one word. that is by the color of their face. when the ladies were talking so affectionately talking about their husbands who went out hunting and fishing, to provide precious foods for their families the main gist of their smiling giggly conversation was about how black the mens faces were from being out in the bright reflections on the snow and ice all day ... and how their faces were "soooo black". As for me i come from northern european stock from my ancestors and i burn rather than tan... so red is my current color. and my lovely wife is so concerned. heheh.. she is filipino, and not used to me being out and hunting, yet., i admit it is comforting to know she worries about me... I know she cares.
the end result of my trip was fruitless, the caribou reports that we had from sunday, were old news by tuesday, many signs of tracks in the snow, and remnants left by the success of the weekends hunters, and signs of wolves everywhere, but not one living caribou in miles and miles of empty land, they can run as fast as a horse, and large herds can move quite far in a day as they roam looking for the moss they love to eat....
often we would stop to look and listen.... as the sun shined over the land i could see the mirage effect over the land even as the temperatures hovered near zero all day, it really made me aware of myself, as a single human being, and my smallness in the vast empty land. and also i was impressed with how really awesome it is to be in a place where as far as you can see, it is seemingly empty of life, or sign of mans dominating presence, and the lack of sound, no noise of cars, little kids, or condstruction .... of course the ravens were feasting on the leftover parts of animals that had been hunted. I even saw a caribou that was wolf killed...and what was so neat about that is how the ravens had cleaned the bones in such a way that it seemed like a scientific illustration that opens the flesh and lets you see the inside workings of the skeletal structure. of course i didnt plan on having time for photographing, so no camera. in the past i had photographed something like it, it was a dog i found out of town one time the ravens had been feasting on. if i can find it i may post the picture... well, maybe not it is somewhat morbid... well that is off the subject anyways.
All done yesterday when we got back home it was 101 miles in 10 hours. a brutal day, but the images fill my soul even though we didnt get some good organic wild caribou meat for our families, the spiritual gain was large, at least for me....
in the center of the picture is the little hill we call 3 step mountain. you can imagine how bumpy was the ride all the way past there on a snow machine.... ugh!
Temps. at -10 f, wind gusts to 40MPH ...
I am sitting in my office with my coat on, an electric heater glowing orange and heating about 8 inches of my leg....
i have lived in this cold land for 22 years, and every year you learn something new.
first i learned how cool it was that a man can go out and if properly taught can survive in the frigid cold. i remember going out for 3 day trips when the daytime temperature was -28 f and the wind was blowing, we would ride our snow mobiles into the vast wilderness in search of food for our families... i know how i did it... but i was younger then, now, for me, there is nothing better, or wiser than staying close to home, unless it is much warmer. like say, above 10 f, and NO wind.
The heat from my wood stove glows like a hidden tropical sun, no light just the warmth... ahhhh the heat glows so differently from a wood stove... i wonder why? it seems with other heat sources the heat bounces off your skin, and reflects back into the room, whereas the wood heat seems to really penetrate into your bones and warms you through and through...
the daylight here is growing more every day, the "visible daylight is 11 hours 51 minutes today a gain of 5 minutes 39 seconds... end of December it was much shorter... daylight at 10 a and dark by 4:30... so even though it is cold, we see now the light lingers a little longer every day5.5 minutes X 7 days= a noticeable difference in the week, and months...march is the fastest increase...by june... wake in the daylight, go to sleep in the daylight, if you need darkness you have to block the windows with foil or something... kids dont want to go to bed... at midnight in the summers the kids are still outside, when the parents have to force them in, unless of course the mosquitoes are out... but thats another story, another time... when i think about the mosquitoes, like a cloud, feerless, hungry ... menacing...
today is -10f... no mud, no mosquitoes... no rain.... wind is blowing gusts to 40 MPH... one thing i learned in my times is never complain about the weather... you cant change it, and It could be worse.
who ever you are.... have a good day.
peace, joy and love
People are forgetful.
thats why i tend to remind them often of the most important things..
I know I forget the one thing some people expect me to remember, and so I know how good it is to be reminded.
i have been known to remind a few folks too much of an important fact... i don't know if it is insecurity, or just that it is so important that they not forget...
i hope it isnt annoying, but it is like if i dont remind them, a part of me remains unfulfilled. at least once a day, but for certain people many times a day never seem enough...
it is as if i worry that if anything happened to me, it is the last thing i want them to remember, because i wanted them to know... to remember, to never forget my nagging voice telling them... if i was to gone i want them to always know, and hear my voice telling them so ...
maybe it is because i myself forget all to often and need to be reminded...
and i hope whoever you are, reading this thought i am having, that you have heard the reminder too, the warmth that comes when out of the blue, some one calls or drops bye, just to remind you...
THEY LOVE YOU!!!
Afterglow Of Love
Afterglow of love,
Warm tender sweetness,
My soul melts
in the gaze of your sleepy eyes,
rapid breathing
slowly subsides,
embracing each other,
holding on tight.
Sparks from our kisses,
As we glow in the night,
Words from my soul,
Caressing your heart,
Our spirits dancing as one,
Differences blurred,
Our union renewed,
We grow to a higher level of love.
Sweet and tender,
Afterglow of love.
Constant in my sight
we lay close together this morning,
holding each other tight,
but though our bodies have parted,
your constant in my sight,
the power of loves sweet energy,
its flowing through our veins,
like a swift frisky team of horses,
we hold tight together the reigns,
our love pulls us through the ages,
through dreary weather and brite,
we follow our hearts with great wonder,
our kisses tell us its right,
I love you more dearly than ever,
our souls in this universe blend,
i carry you inside of my soul dear,
until this sweet life journey ends.
Temestuous Emotion
one misspoken word,
Hot, tempestuous emotion,
blasts of anger from misunderstanding,
she withholds her affection from my soul,
encumbered by the weight of a thousand tears,
the body buckles to the strain,
flashing images and statements of the past,
searching for an anchor to hold through the storm fast,
holding to the meaning and reasons of life,
the storm of silence rages on.
waiting the break of silence,
like the first break of dawn in the dark,
waiting through the long dark night,
each wave of emotion cuts like a knife,
each moment of silence seems endless ...
Passing storm
body aching, burning,
cold dark water smothers my soul,
our lovers quarrel has taken its toll.
our seperation causes thought,
I know i need you, now.
when i call, and you answer, i hear your reserve,
we 've broken the silence, i steady my nerve,
we come together through the icey cold tears,
a long lingering pause,
the exchange of feelings warms our hearts
the rush of pent passions erupt
like bursting the surface of the cold dark water,
body burning , gasping, we breathe each other in,
feeling the molten emotions of deeper love realized,
we emerge from the darkness into a new light,
our love is grown to a deeper dimension,
impossible to see before,
together we've opened a new door.
passing the obstacle that grew in the way,
we faced the demons and now we can say,
I love you, with fresh meaning, new depth, like never before...
love and peace to you my my soulmate,
hold to my hand
together in this life we will stand,
and face the storms that roll from the sea,
I'll hold to you, and you hold to me.
On the roughest days, when so many things lay heavy on my mind, work duties and home obligations, or when i felt discouraged for some reason or another, there is something that i found the other day. I mean i didnt realize it for the first time, but, some things we need to be reminded of, like, if someone loves us we need to be reminded.... well, we dont need it but it sure makes life sweeter to be reminded of love... so the other day i had some things bothering me, i was rushing about i went home to take all my kids to school my wife to work, and the baby to the babysitter... as i am trying to get those slow moving kids on time i walked in to the bedroom where the baby was laying on her belly in the middle of the bed looking about, shes just over 4 months old, as i walked around the cornershe looked at me with her calm face look, and realized it was me... her papa the one who teases and makes all kinds of noises that amuse her for so many hours for day after day... and her face changed in a flash, she had the biggest grin and her little legs and arms started waving around like she was a gold medal swimmer in the baby olympics it was such a warm tender feeling, the dark clouds of life thinned and the light began to pierce through, my little grinch heart began to grow 10 times its size that moment... her smile was so sweet i felt the king of the world... babies are the greatest. and only the most hardened people are not moved and touched by their presence, why i wondered do they have this effect? why will complete strangers walk up to us in the store and make the most unusual noises, and faces and make such obscure blathering baby talk to my baby, that would totally embarrass anyone if not for the baby being there? i have seen this and admittedly have participated in it.... well i realized that babies are humans in our simplest form, they are not as complicated with their personality quirks, they ask us to be fed and change the poo poo from the diaper, they want to be warm, and they crave a little love and attention. If you give them that they give you a smiile and love ... no matter what brand your clothing or what your hair style, they dont discriminate you because of your religion or political affiliation... it all is null. well, that was my sweetest morning in so very long, seeing my baby glow like the morning sun... here is a post of her and her sweet slobbery smile .... look ... see what I mean??? come on... admit it ....
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i am not a grammer specialist or certified writer. all errors are to be considered art.
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